thoughts of a cat

thoughts of cat, im sorry but i had to let this all out :/
i dont really know where this blog is going, i just want to let a whole heap of random stuff out. so dont get offended/annoyed by this mitch if you read it.
well, to start with, im totally tired at the moment. like really tired, i am so over school already. ive only been back for like a week, and i never want to go there again.
im thinking about going for a job at foodworks this week sometime, im really nervous about it though in case i dont acutally get it.
coz then ill be sad.
but mitch says that he'll go with me and stuff, which put my confidence up the tiniest little bit, im stil completely freaked out about it though Dx.
lately i have just being yelled at for every little thing possible. i get upset almost everyday, the only time i dont is if im at mitches.
i think im starting to sound like a clinging girlfriend though :/ i like always have to be there.
but it helps me get away.
i get yelled at for not getting a job to earn money, not doing what im told less than a second after being told to do it, not doing the housework mums way, just everything.
and then if i get a job the parents will stop yelling at me about that, but they will find something else, they always do and im always sad :(
and then i always end up in tears.
oh how i hate it X_x
i wish things were different.
i wish they would just leave me alone.
im so sick of everything :/ i wish i had a place to be where i could be alone, where i could cry or let out my anger without people yelling at me even more.
most of the time i feel like mitch is the only person i can talk to about everything.
about how i feel.
i am so lucky to have him, i finally have someone i can talk to or cry to or just anything.
i just wish i could get away from everything, my life and most of the people in it, and just disappear.
i need to find that place, where i can be alone and where there's no one around.
i think im being too clingy to mitch these days Dx
i miss being a little kid, when i was 5 i didnt have to worry about any of these things.
parents, or jobs, or anything.
i wish i could go back